What are expectations? Expectations can be what we want to happen in the future. Or, expectations can be what we think is going to happen in the future. Or, expectations can be what we are afraid will happen in the future. Note, the key phrase here is “in the future”.
When I wrote Biologically Bankrupt what were my expectations? What I wanted to happen was that the book would be published. What I thought might happen was that no one would like the book enough to want to publish it. What I was afraid would happen is that I would create a firestorm in my family of origin.
Expectations consume our time in the present. Expectations make us worry about things over which we have absolutely no control. Most of the time expectations disappoint us, because we become invested in what we want to happen in the future and when the future does not turn out the way we want it, or imagined it, we feel cheated or let down. Or, if we have fearful expectations, when the future does arrive we usually find that we were completely wrong, and that we have wasted tons of time and energy worrying about nothing.
As it turned out, my expectations surrounding Biologically Bankrupt, while perhaps somewhat based in reality, were never realized. Biologically Bankrupt was published, readers were strongly affected by a story with a powerful healing message, and while I certainly made some of my family members angry, all that happened was “sound and fury signifying nothing”.